Last night

I kinda got drunk last night with my classmates. Then my college friends fetch me to go to the condo, just a few steps away from where were drinking. Then one of them asked me, “How’s [insert name here]?” I can’t remember what they exactly asked.

To give you a background or do I still need to? It’s so obvious with my reblogs or posts. I’m having a hard time letting go of my ex. It’s been months (Before you judge me, Yes its just months but you have no idea what I went through those months) and my feelings are still intense and inexpugnable. And the other chapters are unexplainable. lol.

I told them what happened then the next thing I knew I was crying. They were hugging me and all. Telling me that everything will be okay. I appreciate how much they care for me but I still feel incomplete without him.

I can’t stay late so drink beer even if its just noon or something.

Suddenly my mom texted me, “We’ll fetch you at the uni by 7.” I looked at my watch and it was 6:53pm. I was like OMFG. So I said goodbye to my friends. And asked the “lovers” to help me cross the road. Yeah, I’m a dork I can’t cross the streets without anyone with me. When we got to the condo facade, It was raining so hard and we have no umbrella! So I asked them to stay and just let me go on my own. They were trying to convince me to let my mom fetch me at the condo but I just can’t.

I wanted to walk in the rain so I can cry without anyone noticing. Yes, you can call me EMO. I don’t care. The pain feels so intense that time. So I started walking and crying. It was raining really really hard. To my surprise, my guy friend followed me because they were worried that I can’t cross the road (or I might do something stupid like getting myself hit by a car or whatever). While waiting for my mom at the uni, he gave me advices. Explaining [insert name here]’s side and what an asshole he is and that I should help myself to move on.

I frankly told my friend that I just got pissed that day [insert name here] told me that he already have a girl and blahblah but I’m not angry with him. I just can’t. I’m just hurt. I’m just in soooo much pain. I just love him so much that I can’t even get angry with him no matter how much pain he inflicts me.

I love you guys. Thank you for always being there.

Now, I’m sick. Thanks to the rain. lol