You're still the one.

I saw “FOREVER” the moment I’ve look into your eyes.

The moment we held hands.

The moment our lips touched.

But shit happens.

After all the hurtful words thrown, the tearful nights and the pain I’ve been through, you’re still the one who owns my heart.

You’re still the one.

I still see you as the one who would kiss me when the priest says, “You may kiss the bride.”

I still see you as the one who would hold my hand while I’m giving birth.

I still see you as the one who would be nervously holding my first born baby.

I still see you as the one whom I’d hold hands with when I’m old.

I still see you as the one who would cry when I die.

You’re still the one I believe in.

Gushes of emotions.

~Saw this site.. Tagos e. super tagos. :|

I ruined my own day.. argh..

Anyone could tell me to just give up and move on and I wouldn't, but they don't understand... they don't know him and they dont know what it's like to want him so much. -Jenna B.

I never thought I'd risk the chance of getting hurt again, but for some reason when I'm with you, it all seems worth it.

So I guess I have some guys that would like a chance with me, but why do I say no, why do I not give them a chance, oh yeah because every time I even think of someone else, my thoughts are interrupted by thoughts of you.

I am just wondering, does it hurt you to know that everytime I see you I feel like crying? That when I see your face something inside of me dies just a little bit more, or when I see you frown I want more than anything to kiss your pain away.

You're allowed to break the rules when you want someone bad enough. My friends tell me to let go. They don't think he's right for me. Well, I need him so I'm going to keep holding on tight until he realizes that he needs me too

I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can't because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most.

The higher you build the walls around your heart, the harder you fall when someone tears them down.

How could I have been so blind and not seen that you only wanted to be friends? Oh yes, I know why. Because you acted as if we were more than friends. You built me up only to let me fall, and not help me back up again, and here I am on the ground, crying over what could have been.

You’ll never know how much I miss you. You won't See it on my face, you’ll never know I'll never find another man to take your place. Because I'll be smiling when I see you. No my tears will never show. Yes I will always love you...but you will never know.

I wouldn't change the past for anything. I wouldn't change the way I felt, the things I did, and what I said. I wouldn't change who I was, and what you meant to me. The only thing I would change was how you felt back.

I've accepted the fact that we can't be, but I've also accepted that you're going to be that one person I carry with me for the rest of my life, the one that is always going to make my heart jump a little and my stomach tie up in knots no matter how happy I am otherwise... no matter how long its been.

And even though I know he's a jerk and I know all that he'll do is hurt me, I still love him. I still want him. And I hate myself for it. - Michelle Burns

Just once I want to be hard to leave. I want someone to stay up all night thinking about me.

I can believe that maybe now we aren't meant to be, and a little later on we will be, only because it is impossible for me to believe that I could have these kinds of feelings after so long for someone that wasn't supposed to be in my life forever.

I never thought I'd risk the chance of getting hurt again, but for some reason when I'm with you, it all seems worth it.

I want to cry, really I do but I guess I just dont want to give you the satisfaction of knowing that you hurt me... once again. -Allison Mosher

Sometimes I feel there's a hole inside of me; An emptiness that at times seems to burn…I have this dream of being whole. Not going to bed each night wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me and I want to be seen. -Practical Magic

I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little?

When a girl complains that a guy has no heart, it usually means he has hers.

Isn't it amazing how someone can break your heart, yet you still love them with every broken piece of it?

She wanted to move on, but how could she do that and still stay by your side? Because to be your friend part of herself she'll have to hide.

It's almost three a.m. and I should be asleep but instead I lie awake in my room my head still hurts from the night before last, my only solace is thinking of you, let me dream, give me peace, let me fall fast asleep, cause I swear there will be time for you tomorrow. -Diesel Boy

I just wanna call him up and be like "take it or leave it" but I'm afraid to because I have a feeling he'll leave it, because he doesn't need me as much as I need him.

I'm mad at myself, not you. I'm mad for always being nice, always apologizing for things I didn't do, for getting attached, for making you my life, depending on you, wasting my time on you, thinking about you, following you, changing for you, forgiving you, wishing for you, dreaming of you, and most of all...for not hating you which I know I should, but I can't.

Don't be fooled by her pretty smile, inside she's breaking, she's so fragile.

source: http://www.holliesquotes.com/

Hard enough

"I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I don't know what I wanna see. My world use to be worth living for, and now it's hard enough just to be me."

"I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years, or just not exist, or just not be aware that you do exist, or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning."

-Eeyore

Things were simple when were still kids

"Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again. So when life gets tough you can just play pretend. I wanna go back to when Santa did exist. When your daddy was the only boy you ever kissed. When Disney World was the best place to be. When the only movies you could see were rated G. When your biggest problem was learning to write your name and people didn't change...and your friends were the same. And every time you were sad or you had a bad day. You could just run to mommy and it would all be okay. I wanna go back to no hurt...and no pain...just laughter. When everyone alwayslives happily ever after."

Teardrops

"Teardrops slowly fall from my eyes as I look to the sky, and I question how come life keeps passing me right on by. I just wonder why I can't escape, is this my fate? To always be unhappy and how much longer must I wait..."

-from Yesterday/Today lyrics

You shouldn't have trust me so much.

“I know God wouldn’t give me anything I can’t handle, I just wish he didn’t trust me so much.”

Isn't me.

“Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I’m falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl I am…Is not me.”

Jmie.

JAMIE.

Yeah, that's my name.

It was almost 2 months ago that I changed my name on facebook.

I made it JMIE.

Without the A.

Only 2 persons noticed that "A" was missing.

Somebody asked me why there's a missing letter on my name.

I haven't disclose the reason to them yet.

I was so shy to tell them truth so I just tell them "For a change."

It was really cheesy.

I was afraid that they'd laugh about it.

It was also 2 months ago that I lost the love of my life.

Even if we've been together for just a short period of time,

He's been the love of my life.

I never felt that way before.

I never felt that happy.

I never loved like this before.

I never longed for someone like this before.

He's the man that I've been dreaming to be the father of my kids.

The man that I wanted to grow old with.

But he's gone with the wind.

It was like losing a part of me.

The important part of me.

I've been a broken glass.

It's impossible not to lose something when it's broken.

It will be hard to rebuild the broken pieces back together without being cut.

Okay, I'm way over the topic.

Jmie.

It symbolizes my "grief."

I lost him.

I lost a part me.

I feel so incomplete.

It's like he brought with him my "A" when he left.

I dunno when I'll be complete again.

I hope I'll have the strength to hold on to my life.

I hope I'll be able to endure the pain.

Before it gets too late.

IKR.

I'm so baduy.

But this is the truth.

This is how I feel right now.

LOL.

KILL ME.

It's so fucking painful.

I can't take it.

KILL ME.

PLEASE.

PLEASE.

:'(

"I drink to stay warm, and to kill selected memories."

My mood for today. Lost for words again. Argh.

"For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been.'

-John Greenleaf Whittier

It is quite gratifying to feel guilty if you haven't done anything wrong: how noble! Whereas it is rather hard and certainly depressing to admit guilt and to repent.
-Hannah Arendt

Usually when people are sad, they don't do anything. They just cry over their condition. But when they get angry, they bring about a change.
-Malcolm X

The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it.
-W. M. Lewis

I wanted to die, then. I wanted to destroy the body I was trapped in, become what she was, no matter what it took. No matter how much mutilation or pain. But he looked away, at me. He pulled my face down and pressed my lips against his like he was almost trying to suffocate us both.
-"The Rose and the Beast: Fairyales Retold" by Francesca Lia Block

We couldn't imagine the emptiness of a creature who put a razor to her wrists and opened her veins, the emptiness and the calm.
-"The Virgin Suicides" by Jeffrey Eugenides

If they tell you that she died of sleeping pills you must know that she died of a wasting grief, of a slow bleeding at the soul.
-Clifford Odets

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
-Phil Donahue

Suicide sometimes proceeds from cowardice, but not always; for cowardice sometimes prevents it; since as many live because they are afraid to die, as die because they are afraid to live.
-Charles Caleb Colton

To make yourself something less than you can be - that too is a form of suicide.
-Benjamin Lichtenberg

They tell us that suicide is the greatest piece of cowardice... that suicide is wrong; when it is quite obvious that there is nothing in the world to which every man has a more unassailable title than to his own life and person.
-Arthur Schopenhauer

source: http://www.poemofquotes.com/

"Suicide is man's way of telling God, "You can't fire me - I quit.""

-Bill Maher

source: http://www.thinkexist.com/

"Depression is not sobbing and crying and giving vent, it is plain and simple reduction of feeling...People who keep stiff upper lips find that it's damn hard to smile."
-Judith Guest

"I drink to stay warm, and to kill selected memories."
-Conor Oberst

"Insanity is knowing that what you're doing is completely idiotic, but still, somehow, you just can't stop it."
-Elizabeth Wurtzel

"That's the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it's impossible to ever see the end. The fog is like a cage without a key."
-Elizabeth Wurtzel

source: http://www.allgreatquotes.com/

"This is my depressed stance. When you're depressed, it makes a lot of difference how you stand. The worst thing you can do is straighten up and hold your head high because then you'll start to feel better. If you're going to get any joy out of being depressed, you've got to stand like this."
-Charlie brown

"The best cure for worry, depression, melancholy, brooding, is to go deliberately forth and try to lift with one's sympathy the gloom of somebody else."

-Arnold Bennett

Source: http://www.worldofquotes.com/

Alone.

Let's face the truth.

No matter how hard you try to be lucid about the pain you're feeling,

No one would clearly understand how much pain you're going through.

No one would clearly understand how you're struggling.

Sometimes tears wouldn't be enough to explain how painful it is.

Even if they put theirselves on your shoe,

They wouldn't feel the same impact.

It's just you.

ALONE.

:'(

Love is the distance between reality and pain.

Depression is killing me. :'(

No matter how hard I try to smile, to laugh or to look okay.

It's still showing.

Can't hide it.

Can't gather up my thoughts again.

Another compilation of quotations.

Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you.
-- Unknown.

You'll know that you miss someone very much when everytime you think of that person, your heart breaks into pieces and just a quick hello from that person can bring the broken pieces back.
-- Unknown.

The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have.
-- Unknown.

Just because some people don't cry, doesn't mean they're not suffering.
-- FH.

Tearless grief bleeds inwardly.
-- Christian Nevell Bovee.

A blow with a word strikes deeper than a blow with a sword.
-- Robert Burton.

It takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
-- Unknown.

We are never so helplessly unhappy as when we lose love.
-- Sigmund Freud.

Resistance is futile. You will be assimilated.
-- The Borg.

It was never love that broke her heart
It was losing his sympathy that tore her apart.
-- FH.

A sad soul can kill you quicker than a germ.
-- John Steinbeck.

When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.
-- Franklin Delano Roosevelt.

If we deny love that is given to us, if we refuse to give love because we fear pain or loss, then our lives will be empty, our loss greater.
-- Unknown.

To lose your LOVE is to have a thousand lives and have them all end at once!
-- Unknown.

The amount of love someone feels for you is inversely proportional to how much you love them.
-- Murphy's Law of Loving.

Absolute silence leads to sadness. It is the image of death.
-- Jean Jacques Rousseau.

It's not that the heart grows cold. No, it burns to ash, and the ash grows cold.
-- Joel Welling.

Have you ever been hurt and the place tries to heal a bit, and you just pull the scar off of it over and over again.
-- Rosa Parks.

You never really know how lucky you are to have someone, until they are gone and you are left with nothing but memories.
-- Unknown.

To perceive is to suffer.
-- Aristotle.

Time takes it all, whether you want it to or not. Time takes it all, time bears it away, and in the end there is only darkness. Sometimes we find others in that darkness, and sometimes we lose them there again.
-- Stephen King.

What we have once enjoyed we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.
-- Helen Keller.

Good humor is the health of the soul, sadness is its poison.
-- Lord Chesterfield.

We cannot learn without pain.
-- Aristotle.

Sometimes to realize you were well, someone must come along and hurt you.
-- Perry Farrell.

The essence of romantic love is that wonderful beginning, after which sadness and impossibility may become the rule.
-- Anita Brookner.

Pain is a more terrible lord of mankind than even death itself.
-- Albert Schweitzer.

People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges.
-- J. F. Newton.

I never felt true happiness till I met you, but I never felt true sadness till you left me.
-- Unknown.

There is only one prospect worse than being chained to an intolerable existence: The nightmare of a botched attempt to end it.
-- Arthur Koestler.

Life is like an onion. You peel it off layer by layer and sometimes you cry.
-- Unknown.

Sometimes I wish I were a kid again; skinned knees are a lot easier to fix than a broken heart.
-- Unknown.

There is no coming to consciousness without pain.
-- Carl Jung.

Love is also like a coconut which is good while it is fresh, but you have to spit it out when the juice is gone, what's left tastes bitter.
-- Bertolt Brecht.

There are hurts so deep that one cannot reach them or heal them with words.
-- Kate Seredy.

Love is like a butterfly, hold it too tight, it'll crush, hold it too loose, it'll fly.
-- Unknown.

Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists. When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence.
-- Goncourt.

Tears are the safety valve of the heart when too much pressure is laid on it.
-- Albert Smith.

It is easier to find men who will volunteer to die, than to find those who are willing to endure pain with patience.
-- Julius Caesar.

Love is the distance between reality and pain.
-- Robyn Hitchcock.

People don't fall in love with what's right in front of them. People want the dream -- what they can't have. The more unattainable, the more attractive.
-- Xander Harris.

Life is much like writing in ink : All you can do is read over your past and look forward to a blank page for your future that will soon be filled with words that can never be erased.
-- Gabe Suico.

He who cries the loudest shows the most pain
He who keeps it all inside dies in vain.
-- Blake Baxter.

The tragedy of it is that nobody sees the look of desperation on my face. Thousands and thousands of us, and we're passing one another without a look of recognition.
-- Henry Miller.

The words of his mouth were smoother than butter, but war was in his heart: his words were softer than oil, yet were they drawn swords.
-- Psalms 55:21.

To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful.
-- Bess Myerson.

Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome.
-- Isaac Asimov.

Sometimes it hurts more then we can bear. If we could live without passion maybe we'd know some kind of peace... but we would be hollow... empty rooms shuttered and dank. Without passion we'd be truly dead.
-- Unknown.

Perhaps I know why it is man alone who laughs: He alone suffers so deeply that he had to invent laughter.
-- Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche.

Most men lead lives of quiet desperation and go to the grave with the song still in them.
-- Henry David Thoreau.

The story of a love is not important - what is important is that one is capable of love. It is perhaps the only glimpse we are permitted of eternity.
-- Helen Hayes.

It takes two to speak the truth... one to speak and another to hear.
-- Henry David Thoreau.

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
-- Unknown.

Source: http://www.farid-hajji.net/quotes/sadness.html

Until I wake up by Dishwalla

I was browsing Dishwalla's songs and found this.

Reminds me of my blog.

Until I wake up

I rest my head
Between the bed and sky
Download my dread
Disarm my mind
Make it dry

Nothing in motion, and I`m satisfied
No disappointment, until I wake up
Don`t want to wake up

Into clear space
Vivid vision
See her shape
At my bedside
Beam up my mind please

There`s nothing in motion, and I`m satisfied
No disappointment, until I wake up

There`s nothing in motion, and I`m satisfied
No disappointment, until I wake up
I don`t want to wake up
Ooh, Oooooooh, Oooooooh

Nothing in motion, and I`m satisfied
No disappointment, until I wake up

There`s nothing in motion, and I`m satisfied
No disappointment, until I wake up
I don`t want to wake up, no
I don`t want to wake up, no
Ooh, Ooh

I don`t want to wake up, no

Fck.

Arghhh.

Ang hirap.

Super hirap.

Hindi ako galit sayo.

Kating kati na yung kamay ko to click your name and message you.

But I need to stop myself.

I don't want to burden you.

And make you worry.

I'm missing you like hell.

And it's hurting me so much.

Forcing myself to sleep

After all the things that happened in the past,

You're still the reason why I smile.

After all the pain that I've been through,

You're still the reason why I'm alive.

This past few days, I've been forcing myself to sleep.

Sleep was one of my anesthesia from emotional pain other than alcohol.

Atleast even for that moment, I wouldn't feel the pain for loving so much.

I'll hug my pillow tight and imagine it was you.

And I'll feel relieved.

I'll try to fill my head with the good memories we've had.

Then I'll feel a sudden twitch on my chest and start crying.

I cried because I was happy that there's "US" that happened,

That once in my life, I had you.

Then I'll fall asleep.

Those thoughts make me feel safe.

Makes me feel at peace.

But every time I wake up was always like "a moment of truth."

The truth that I'll never have you back.

And I'll just be a part of your past.

I guess I'll just be thankful that I've been part of your life.

Whether you like it or not.

I still love you.

I'll always do.

It's my choice.

I'm not asking for anything in return.

YOU

"You"

It's time to be honest with myself
i've fooled around too long
now all I think about is you
and what we used to have

i'm scared to live without your love
coz you were really all i had
now my only love has gone away
and it hurts so bad

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.
is you, is you
is you, baby.

It's time to be honest with you babe
you made me a better woman
you cared for me so much
so much you scared me boy

Now I feel you in the air I breath
even though you're not in front of me
you were like a summer breeze
and it's killing me

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

is you babe
You're the only man

I'm tired of crying, come back in my life
think about it, it's been awhile
I've never meant to hurt you baby
you're the only man I need.....

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

is you
the only man is you
the only man is you

The only thing that's missing in my life, is you.
The only thing I need in my life, is you.

the only man is you..

:'(

Pain

"Remember that pain has this most excellent quality. If prolonged it cannot be severe, and if severe it cannot be prolonged."

-Seneca, Spanish-born Roman Statesman, philosopher

"Pain of mind is worse than pain of body"

-Publilius Syrus, 1st Century BC, Roman Writer

"Pleasure that is obtained by unreasonable and unsuitable cost, must always end in pain."
-Samuel Johnson, British Author

"Pain is such an uncomfortable feeling that even a tiny amount of it is enough to ruin every enjoyment."

-Will Roger, American Humorist, Actor

"There is no more lively sensation than that of pain; its impressions are certain and dependable, they never deceive as may those of the pleasure women perpetually feign and almost never experience."

-Marquis De Sade, French Author

"That which is escaped now is pain to come."

-Proverbs

"Everything hurts."

-Michaelangelo, Italian Renaissance Painter, Sculptor

"Pain nourishes courage. You can't be brave if you've only had wonderful things happen to you.''

-Mary Tyler Moore, American Actress

"Pain was their body's way of telling them that they'd pushed themselves to their limits -- which was exactly where they were supposed to be."

-Richard Marcinko, American Business Author

"We must all suffer one of two things: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret or disappointment."

-Jim Rohn

"It is easier to find men who will volunteer to die, than to find those who are willing to endure pain with patience."
-Julius Caesar

"It's odd that you can get so anesthetized by your own pain or your own problem that you don't quite fully share the hell of someone close to you."
-Lady Bird Johnson

"The only antidote to mental suffering is physical pain."

-Karl Marx

-I AGREE. I like this last one so much. lol