Finally

I've been depressed for a month now. Why?

Same old shit. Heart problems.

I've given everything.

I accepted everything about him.

His attitude was the hardest part for me to accept.

Narrow-minded.

Immature.

But still I tried hard to understand him.

Very hard.

I love him so much.

I've been deaf, blind and mute for him.

Deaf?

I've covered up my ears to those who tried to traduce him.

Blind?

I've covered up my eyes to the truth that was so painful to accept.

Mute?

I've covered up my mouth for the painful words that wanted to get out whenever I get hurt.

There's a lot of my emotional pains he didn't get to hear about.

Well, I don't blame him.

I did that out of love.

No one's perfect.

I've been faulty too.

He's the one I wanted to spend my life with.

He's the only one I've imagined to be my husband.

But now he's gone.

He left me.

And went off with his EGO.

The fact that he never listened to me was the most painful, the most excruciating.

'til our last moment, he didn't listen, he didn't consider any explanations from me.

I can't even get mad at him.

I love him so much :(

Now I'm so fucked up.

I'm so depressed.

But I still wanna hang on and run after him.

I know I shouldn't.

But it's too hard.

I love him so much.

I'll try to go on with my life.

But I won't close my door if he wanted me back but I'm not keeping my hopes up.

I know time would heal the pain.

It's just really hard to move on.

Even if its hard, I'm moving on.